Jan. 1st, 2010

blu_22: (Hapy New Year)
So, a couple of weeks ago I went to the doctor's office to take care of my 5th cold of the year (plz not to repeat that 2010) and they weighed me. I weigh an incredibly unacceptable 304 lbs. Seeing as I hardly ever move at all and eat horrible food every day this is unsurprising. I'm a size 26/28 and my pants are tight. I no longer want to live like this.

I'm always exhausted, I get headaches, my arms regularly go numb, I get winded going up a single flight of stairs, etc. I had blood work done during the same visit and I need to call back for the results, but surprisingly my blood pressure was perfectly normal so at least that's one good thing I've got going for me. I have a lot of family history going against me however. Diabetes, heart disease, various cancers and I should know better. I could give a million excuses but there's none that are justifiable for living this way.

One major factor is my depression. I haven't been clinically diagnosed for anything, but I feel it. One of the things I want to take care of this year is my mental health as well as my physical health but that's a post for another day.

Today, I did something I haven't done in roughly 10 years. Yoga. I was introduced to yoga in high school and found surprisingly that I enjoyed it but I was lazy and I didn't keep up with it after I didn't have to in order to get a grade in gym. I decided to try it again because it was relaxing and because I can do it in the house on my own terms without an audience.

I came away with two realizations. Yoga is a lot harder than I remembered and I'm REALLY fucking out of shape. YEESH! I had a hard time keeping up with the most basic of moves and I couldn't even get my breathing down right. I was a hilarious spectacle to my sister and best friend Georgia however. (We're at Georgia's house for the long weekend.) Her cat kept coming over to me to see if I was ok. I'm sure with a bit more practice I'll start to focus more and follow along better, but WOW was that a wake-up call.

As far as my diet goes, I'm cutting out soda once and for all. That's one of the things I really wish I hadn't started consuming again. I had cut it once before but once I started again I became completely addicted to it. Incidentally if you've seen the Man Drinking Fat commercial, that's my buddy from high school Damian taking one for the team and trying to get NYC on track about their soft drink habits. No he didn't actually drink fat, but the message totally got through to me.

My food intake today was abysmal but once I get back to NY I plan to start bringing my own lunch to work and stop getting take out with everyone in the office. I'm also going to wipe off the dust from my Wii Fit and putting it to daily use. I never EVER want to see a scale read ANYTHING above 300 when I get on in again.


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